Just a quick recap of what has been going on here on the baby-front. I went to the specialist last month and was told fertility treatments were a no go. Why? Because I had a cyst on my right ovary. The doctor wanted me to take a month off for my body to heal itself and the cyst to go away.
Fast forward to last Friday. Had my monthly baseline ultrasound to "check what's going on under the hood." Uterus: check, all systems go. Left ovary: check, clean as a whistle. Right ovary: BOO! HISS! BOO! Not only was my unwanted guest still there, but it did not shrink. Not on millimeter! In fact, it grew.
To say I was disappointed would be a half-truth. While you never want to hear your doctor say "your cyst didn't do what we wanted it to, it did the opposite", I am actually kind of relieved. In the moment, I was crushed. I cried all day at work.
Looking at all that is going on in my life, and what is about to go on in the next few weeks, it is kind of a relief. Scott has to have surgery next Friday. Once he has the surgery, he will be out of work for a minimum of three-four weeks. That means I will be playing nurse for a while. My body and mind don't need the additional stress of going through fertility treatments this month.
So for now, I am just taking my "cyst dissolving pills" (birth control) and praying that it does the trick. I was reminded this morning on the way to work how when I try to lead what is going on in my life, it never works out the way I want it to. That when I hold on to God and let Him lead, things always turn out better.
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