Benchmarks

In the world of Special Education there are a lot of goals and benchmarks. Why wouldn't an Intervention Specialist have their own IEP of sorts? Here is my rough draft of my own IHP (Individualized Health Plan).

Goal One: Get Healthy
Benchmarks:
     1. Eat a more balanced diet.
     2. Exercise at least four days a week.
     3. Get stronger by completing strength training on a regular basis.
     4. Lose at least sixty pounds at a moderate to slow pace as to keep it off.

Goal Two: Get Pregnant and Stay Pregnant
Benchmarks:
     1. Lose weight in a healthy way.
     2. Take vitamins daily and as scheduled.
     3. Try to relax and live as stress free as possible.
     4. Pray without ceasing for God's direction and for discernment.
     5. Give it to God. For real. Quit trying to be in control.

I have had success with goal one and I am striving to be successful with all of my benchmarks in goal two. Goal one successes: have been on a gluten free diet for a little over two months, I have started exercising  several times a week (but need to be consistent over a course of weeks), I have been strength training as planned but need to step up my cardio, I am down 27.2 pounds since starting.

Goal two successes:  (well obviously I am not pregnant or you would have heard me shouting for joy) I am losing weight in a healthy manner and at a good pace, I have been following my doctor's orders to a tee as far as vitamins and meds are concerned, I have been trying to be stress free but that is next to impossible. I have started to go back to my support group and the exercising helps with the stress relief. I have been praying a lot, but have changed up my prayer compared to how I used to pray. The last benchmark I am really struggling with.

Last week in group someone said that they had to realize that they weren't God and let it go. Once they did that, things started to get better for them. I sat and thought to myself for a while. I realized that I too had thought that I was in someway God. I foolishly thought I was God and that I could make things go the way I wanted if I just tried harder. Boy was that a wake-up call. I really need to stop doing what I had been doing (which was insane) and once and for all truly let go and give it to God. He knows what is best for me.