I think my weight loss and desire to get healthier has caused a change in me. I have always been an introvert and I am pretty sure I will always be one. For as long as I can remember I have felt uncomfortable in my own body.
I am my own worst critic. My view of myself is probably more harsh than others. I tend to think that people automatically judge me based on how I look rather than WHO I am. I assume that I am not my biggest fan, that other people have no choice but to feel the same.
Since working out and shedding some poundage, I am becoming slightly more comfortable with myself. I don't see a huge change in how I look or feel. My energy is slightly higher and my clothes are all a bit big.
I redeemed one of my personal training sessions today. I was terrified. The man who is my trainer was kind of intimidating in my mind prior to my session. Truth of the matter is he isn't. He made me feel like I could do anything he threw at me and was quick to tell me "Good job" or "That isn't challenging, is it?" Or "I think that is a bit too heavy for now".
I somehow finished my hour of training without crying, throwing up, having a panic attack or giving up. He has challenged me to doing an hour of core work next week. I stupidly said "I will try anything once as long as it doesn't kill me." If you don't hear from me or see me after 4:00 next Sunday you will know why.
In the 6 months I have been working toward a more healthy me, there are a few things I can be proud of (which will be another post of its own). I have come farther than I thought possible, and I have a LOT farther to go. No matter how slow or fast the journey is, I am determined to see it through to the end. Slow and steady wins the race, right?
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